Well let me start by saying, Happy Halloween, Happy Thanksgiving, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, since it seems I have missed all those holidays since my last post!
I have gotten off track with this thing, guess I either don't have much to say or I am tired of talking about all the crap we have had to deal with over the past year.
Last year was a hard one, mainly from what we dealt with from April to November, which is pretty much over half the year. Have you ever dealt with something that drains you for that long? How did you get through it? I was lucky and have lots of support with wonderful family and friends. I was able to vent to numerous people, they were probably tired of me talking about it and it was just as taxing on them as it was on me. There were days when I wanted to just get in the car and drive away from all the problems, but I knew that wouldn't help matters. Then there were days where I wanted to beat the ever lovin' tar out of one person in particular, but that wouldn't make it better either. I cried more than I care to this past year, but that seemed the only way I could get any stress out of my system. There were days I wanted to curl up in bed and not get out and not have to face the stress, but I couldn't do that as I had kids that were depending on me.
I was lucky to find during this hard time, a wonderful place where I could go and all my stress would melt away as soon as I stepped out of my car and my feet hit the ground. I still go there and find times when even if I am not feeling any stress, I am able to go and recharge and make myself better so that I can be better for my family. Do you have a place like that? If not, you should get one. The people I have met and the things I have learned about myself have been wonderful. I have found a new support group I never knew was out there. People accept me for who I am, flaws and all, and they care for me in spite of all that. I was surprised to find myself telling people I had just met the hard times I was facing this past year and the support they gave me was amazing.
I am new to the place I go, at least I still consider myself new, and I am hopeful to get more involved with this organization. I want to do more because it just makes me feel good. Maybe that is a selfish reason, but I don't see how doing something good that also makes you feel good can be wrong. I don't get any financial gain by working there, but it sure does my spirit wonders! To me that is worth more than any paycheck.
I am not dealing with the major issues that we had last year, but I seem to have other things that have taken its place; of course this is all with the same person. We keep trying to look forward and know that one day we won't have these issues to deal with, but it is hard and the road seems so long. But I have to remind myself of many things - I have a wonderful family that I am forever greatful for; I have great friends who have been there through it all and have been such support for me that it is hard to put into words; I have three crazy kids who keep life interesting; and best of all I have the best husband in the world. He willingly came into this craziness 10 years ago and has been there for me every step of the way.
As one of my friends said this past week, "I don't know what the future holds, but I know who holds the future." Here's to a calm and boring 2012!
No comments:
Post a Comment