Minor Meltdown

Well Pat may say it was a major meltdown. With all the stress of the house and getting the basement done, not having a master bathroom, not having my oldest home for a month and not able to talk to him, and having two wild monkeys on my hands, I had a meltdown yesterday. I found myself yelling at the kids, so much so that I scared Jamie. When I get like this I then throw things, or kick things...and unfortunately for those things I kick playing soccer means I kick pretty darn hard. I let the kids have the run of the downstairs with popsicles because I had to get away for a few minutes. I was not finding any joy yesterday in my kids, and I am not normally like that. I can't even go shopping without my kids, I don't know what to do when I actually get to go somewhere and am not having to race through the store b/c someone may blow at any minute. I called my sister in law JeLynn who really helped me through my stress. She reassured me that I am allowed to loose it every once in a while and that I should not feel bad because I do. After talking to her I felt way better, I sat down with the kids and apologized for yelling and told them that I was just really stressed right now. Kiera was so sweet as she gave me a hug and kiss, even Jamie kissed me. The evening was better, no major issues and I am hoping the day with JeLynn and her kids will help get my mind back to where it needs to be. On another note, Andrew comes home on Sunday, finally! It has been really hard not to have him home and not to be able to talk to him. No card last week and nothing this week. I am sure he got tired of writing to so many people. Kiera and I will be busy on Saturday making a special cake for him and decorating the house. She also has planned that after dinner she and Andrew can have movie night in his room and hang out together, she really misses him. I went out and got his school supplies yesterday, can't believe he will be in 5th grade. He is growing up to be such a great young man, we are truly blessed to have him as our son.